If not fresh, better?

I'm finally in the mindset
to start again.
to start on what I hardly finished before.
to start on what I never meant to do wrong,
but to finally do right and not stop in the middle.
If I were you, I'd be looking at this,
over analyzing, like I always seem to do.
but for what seems like the first time,
this is blatantly about..what it's about.
there's not a more simple way to put it.
I mean, think about it:
what sticks out, to you, about me the most?
I don't know if I should apologize for it not being there anymore, when it decides to go.
most of it is already gone, which I both blame and thank a single person for.
but the rest needs to go.
say bye, you guys.

oh dear,
my confidence scares me.